Is it too late to post my new year resolution after passing January? I will do it anyway though. Let me rewind how my January went.
I guess my January 2018 went pretty well. I spent some me time at home during the new year's eve while my bf was with his friends going out till late. I wasn't with him because I was just from Bandung with my family (which have some aggravating moments). Long story short, holiday was over, I got back to campus, had a few weeks of classes before the final exam. I think there is just one thing that went very wrong. On the day of Scientific Computation Exam, there was an earthquake. I panicked at the moment but I moved on eventually. The last 5 minutes, I was thinking of backing up my latest answer and upload it to the system. I saved my answer (a docx file) on the very first edit and save it continuously afterward (ctrl+s). The problem was I didn't remember where I placed the file (UHHH). I got extremely panic and started yelling that I lost my file. I asked the proctor who turns out to be my buddy(my junior) for extra time. As kind as he is, he extended the exam's duration. Thank God I managed to get the most of my answer even though I was not fully satisfied (because I could have done better than what I submitted).
So, back to new year resolution. Looking back at my daily activities from the first time I stepped in into university, I have been mediocre. I always want to graduate with summa cumlaude(GPA > 3.91) so that I can make everyone proud of me. I try my best to ace all courses. I got 1 B and 2 B+ this far. The rest of them is either A or A-. I am currently in the 7th semester. Calculating my GPA is frustrating because I would know that there is only a little chance to get a summa cumlaude. While in JPCC I was told(or preached) that nothing is impossible with God. Yes. You can use your imagination of what you want to be. Nothing is impossible. Knowing the numbers, maths and the probability prohibits me to believe that nothing is impossible.
Lately I keep thinking whether my destination is wrong. I should not chase the fame. I should not chase the pride. Just be a good person. What does it mean to have summa cumlaude if I cheated on exams? What is the benefit of acing all the courses yet you forget them after? I decided from now on I will be the best version of me.
My resolution:
- No bad words (so difficult)
- Write 2 things I am grateful for everyday, do not complain
- Do not let anger takes control
- Do not let other people take away my peace
- Do not worry
- Weigh 50 kg with 15% body fat
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