Worry, Will It Help?

Looking at the last 2 posts, I realized that I worried a lot. I worried about my Human Computer Interaction Quiz, I worried about my Scientific Computation Exam, and I worried about all other things too. I managed to get a good grade at the end of both courses. Was it because I worried so that I studied harder? I think I studied just like I usually do. I figure out that worrying just makes me anxious, sad, mad. Do not worry. That is one of my resolution in 2018.

My seventh semester passed, I got A for 18 credits and B+ for 6 credits. The things that I worried about, did not happen. The B+ were from Statistical Process Control and Entrepreneurship 2. It is so frustrating when you thought you did extremely great on exams but it turned out just 'okay'. I got 82 on mid exam, 85 on final exam, and 78 on assignment (SPC). I think I deserved more but never mind, maybe I didn't. I aced the Entrepreneurship exam, got a score of 100. Guess what, the proportion is only 25%. I got 85 on the mid exam which also give 25% contribution for the final score. the rest 50% is from assignment and the lecturer gave 75 for our group(it was a group project).

Anyway, I didn't protest my scores. I got disappointed a moment, and then I moved on. My GPA decreased 0.01 :) I know I could have done better, yet I am here now showing gratitude that I still got A for the rest.

2018

Is it too late to post my new year resolution after passing January? I will do it anyway though. Let me rewind how my January went.

I guess my January 2018 went pretty well. I spent some me time at home during the new year's eve while my bf was with his friends going out till late. I wasn't with him because I was just from Bandung with my family (which have some aggravating moments). Long story short, holiday was over, I got back to campus, had a few weeks of classes before the final exam. I think there is just one thing that went very wrong. On the day of Scientific Computation Exam, there was an earthquake. I panicked at the moment but I moved on eventually. The last 5 minutes, I was thinking of backing up my latest answer and upload it to the system. I saved my answer (a docx file) on the very first edit and save it continuously afterward (ctrl+s). The problem was I didn't remember where I placed the file (UHHH). I got extremely panic and started yelling that I lost my file. I asked the proctor who turns out to be my buddy(my junior) for extra time. As kind as he is, he extended the exam's duration. Thank God I managed to get the most of my answer even though I was not fully satisfied (because I could have done better than what I submitted).

So, back to new year resolution. Looking back at my daily activities from the first time I stepped in into university, I have been mediocre. I always want to graduate with summa cumlaude(GPA > 3.91) so that I can make everyone proud of me. I try my best to ace all courses. I got 1 B and 2 B+ this far. The rest of them is either A or A-. I am currently in the 7th semester. Calculating my GPA is frustrating because I would know that there is only a little chance to get a summa cumlaude. While in JPCC I was told(or preached) that nothing is impossible with God. Yes. You can use your imagination of what you want to be. Nothing is impossible. Knowing the numbers, maths and the probability prohibits me to believe that nothing is impossible.

Lately I keep thinking whether my destination is wrong. I should not chase the fame. I should not chase the pride. Just be a good person. What does it mean to have summa cumlaude if I cheated on exams? What is the benefit of acing all the courses yet you forget them after? I decided from now on I will be the best version of me.

My resolution:
- No bad words (so difficult)
- Write 2 things I am grateful for everyday, do not complain
- Do not let anger takes control
- Do not let other people take away my peace
- Do not worry
- Weigh 50 kg with 15% body fat

Today didn't go too well

Today (4/4/2017), I had Human Computer Interaction classes; theory and practicum. Last meeting, the theory lecturer said that there would be another quiz for today. I got in the class questioning why my friends are all outside. Turned out that the room had just been used by a bunch of cleaning services, leaving the room smelled so bad. The lecturer ended up changing the room. We moved. The projector wasn't so good, colors changed to blue and was hard to read. Luckily the quiz was postponed to next week!

Next class: practicum quiz. I learned a bit about HTML, I do understand it but I have terrible memory to get the grasp of tag structure or so. Long story short, I ran out of time, wasn't able to create the FB and Twitter logo link to their links, didn't make hover effect, and the very last stupid mistake is I didn't upload 1 file which is the psd file. How stupid! I can't stop thinking about it.

I wish I could still get at least a B for this course, otherwise I won't be able to graduate with cumlaude predicate!

I went home desperately, I had planned to go out with my boyfriend, to soothe my depressed mind. We played pool 7 times(he said), as perfect as it is, I lost 7 times. Today is ended with a victory of playing 501 darts :)

Convocation Ceremony Binusian 2020

Today, 30th of August 2016, me and my BC(Buddy Coordinator) partners went to JCC Senayan for Convocation Ceremony welcoming binusian 2020. We gathered together in front of Lawson Syahdan at 6AM. Dude, I left home at about 5.40 and it was still dark. I made it safely to Syahdan.

We wanted to book go-car at first but they were all far. Either they cancelled the booking or we did. Minutes passed by. Wasted. We should be at JCC by 6.30AM hence I suggested we ride our bikes. Suddenly, there was a driver found nearby while we were waiting for Michael taking his bike to Syahdan. Pity him that he had taken his bike here and it turned out useless. The driver was nearby, unfortunately he needed to go around to pick us up. It was so crowded, we walked all the way to Seven Eleven to make everything faster. Shortly, we got in the car and arrived eventually.

The Convocation Ceremony was just the same as it was 2 years ago. One difference is Inauguration Award. There is only 3 Awards; the most creative class, the most ..., and the best class. Uh I forget the second one. Our class, CBN02 didn't win any. Not even nominated lol. After it was over, we all went out to take a picture but it was so crowded we couldn't even control our buddies. Some of them had gone home. Suddenly, it started to rain. We took a picture just with the remaining buddies. I went back to the BC secretariat for signing the attendance and having my 70k.

Forced to go out so that they don't mix us up with the second shift of the event. We went out. It was still raining cats and dogs. Archi ordered a grab car and got a driver shortly. The car is Agya. There were 8 of us. Huft. Idk why I then decided to follow James using Transjakarta. Ivan knows the transportation from Slipi to Syahdan. The rain was crazy. I was all wet when I got in the Angkot. Huft. I should have ordered go-car instead. TJ is 3500 and Angkot 4000, sum it 7500. I would not have got wet if I took go-car. I still needed to ride my bike home, went to the motor park. I fell down the stairs, it was slippery. Thank God I'm OK. Made it back home wet, hungry and cold.

The arrival of my Moyu Weilong GTS paid it all. Thanks Jocubes!

FIFTH STAGE AT WALLSTREET

I am so sad today. I joined American Independence Party. Lots of student I barely know. Well at least I had Linda. Rob led the class. First quiz was about geography. And followed by any other quizzes I hardly know the answer. I felt useless and stupid. Looks like every other team knew the answer. But, I just hate it when someone cheats. And yeah I know someone was cheating. They're all rubbish. I did really badly these days. 

I hope I can get along with new friends (It is so hard, I've tried). Making Wallstreet my favorite spot again. I don't know why it is so hard. Maybe because my Second Family is daaa besttt. I'm going to meet some of them tomorrow btw! We had met before but we just need more time together. Never get bored with them. Social clubs together, eat together, going wild together, even if we didn't win a game in a social club, at least we had fun, today, my team lost the game and I had no fun at all. I wish I had my old team back! 

Oh ya. I'm gonna tellya bout my last encounter with Rob. I passed unit 59. We talked about gerund, to infinitive, and laws (ew!). That is all I remember. In the last minute he said that I could do just 1 encounter per month, He wished He could get my unit 68 which is the last unit so that he could repeat me lol. We'll see, Rob, we'll see.

Peace out!